Freud, in his big book of dreams, claims that the grammar of
dreams is a negotiation of the past and the future pressed through the
preoccupations and happenstance of the present. A dream, for Freud, roughly
follows patterns inherited from the past, driven by a wish for the future (that
the dream might fulfil in some way), thrown together with what Freud calls the
day’s residues (the remains of the day). You can see the truth of some of this
when you work out that this or that bit of your dream is borrowed from last
night’s barely registered television watching.
More and
more I think of the patterns of the past taking the form of distinctive
cartographies. Over and over I’m locked into an oneiric commute, or else I’m
having to deal with situations within a particular house. The trouble with
these commutes and with the dream houses I occupy is that are determinedly impossible
and unmanageable (or rather they follow their own dream logic). One of my dream
commutes has me having to catch a bus ‘home’. I’m late of course and the last
bus will be leaving soon. I know where the bus stop is, and all I have to do is
go to that bit of town and catch the bus. The only trouble is that the dream
confuses me as to where I am. I know the part of town precisely: it is a street
that starts wide and gets narrower as it moves away from the centre of town; it
has some shops (for instance a large furniture shop that is sometimes a musical
instrument shop or a sweet shop), and the street gives way to more and more domestic
houses, some very old, as the street narrows. It is not a salubrious part of
town: perhaps students live here; perhaps some of the houses are used by
small-time lawyers and insurance companies. I need to go either east or west
but my sense of direction and my sense of the route I need to take is based on
a quite different urban landscape. It’s as if I’m trying to find my way around Berlin
using a map of Paris (an old Situationist ploy): or to get more of a sense of
the regional scale of these dreams – it’s as if I’m trying to find my way
around Colchester in Essex with a map of some other small regional town.
The houses
that I inhabit in dreams all seem very familiar. Perhaps an amalgam of houses
that I lived in my twenties when I moved house a couple of times a year. The
houses have too many rooms and there is always a room that throws the logic of
the house out of joint: for instance a small terraced house might have a small
container ship as part of the basement. The container ship might be small (for
a container ship) but it is gargantuan compared to the scale of the house. [I
get excited thinking that one of the containers would make a good studio.]
My dreams
are made up of the edges of things: the edges of town; the corridors between
rooms; the patch of packed earth near a small copse on the edge of a
playground. Whatever there is at the centre is of no concern of mine.
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